Strange

Strange how some moments just grip you. This morning I was taking a shower when I just felt this intense grief for the loss of my cousin. It just hits my heart all over again and I can't help but feel such intense disbelief and sadness. I don't think it ever goes away, that utter lonlieness you feel after losing a loved one. Cousin. Grandpa. Grandma. Anyone at all. And I don't think you realize just how much you loved them until they are gone.